Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Capture Your Grief - Days 1 & 2

As I said yesterday, I’m struggling with words right now.  October is a difficult month, and I’m excited for this, well distraction, for lack of a better term.  I saw the Capture Your Grief 2012 photo challenge from Carly Marie and Project Heal.  I felt like this was something that I could do each day, as a way to process all that this month holds, the good, the bad, and the impossibly hard.

I'm playing catch-up to day 1.  It's Sunrise.  It’s been a dreary couple of days here, so I decided to capture a different type of sunrise.  This is my little sunshine, Addalee, waking up this morning.  She makes my heart smile.

Day 2.  It's a Before Loss Self Portrait.  We weren't really big picture takers of me during my pregnancy with Caroline.  I fully regret that now, but it is what it is.  So as a result of my hiding from the camera, we don't have a lot of pictures of me pregnant with her.  However, we do have some.  This one is from one of the showers that were thrown for us.  It was just a few weeks before we lost her, and if you could see my face, it has a big fat perma-grin.  I was happy, things were beautiful, she was healthy. 


  1. Addalee is so cute! Thanks for reminding me I wanted to participate in this as well

  2. Addalee is so sweet and precious. :)

  3. Addalee is so sweet. :o)

    I hate looking at pictures of myself before my loss. I just think I look so silly and stupid for not knowing what the future would hold...what would I give to be that innocent again? It is such a weird thing. Hugs!

  4. I rarely get on blogspot, but saw this new thing you are doing and I think it's a very "healthy" thing for you to blog daily. I'm sorry you even have to go through this all & I don't know what else to say other than I'm sorry. I'm so glad, though, that you have such a beautifully sun-shining Addalee face to wake up to each morning! What an absolutely precious morning picture of her.