It’s been a year and a half. She’d be 18 months old. I’ll be honest, I don’t even know what a day in the life of an 18 month old would be like and I don’t have the guts to read those emails that I STILL get from time to time. I miss her.
I can’t believe it’s been so long and that we’re headed for her 2nd birthday. So much has happened. So much has changed. So much has stayed the same in my heart though.
Having Addalee here has been a great distraction. She’s a blessing and ray of sunshine in our lives. I only hope that we are able to honor Caroline in being Addie’s parents. I hope she knows how much we love her and miss her.
I’ll be honest, I’m still a little nervous about Mother’s Day. Last year, it was kind of one of the crappiest things I could think of. All those stupid cards in the stores, the sappy commercials on TV, yuck. Even though I have a living daughter here, Mother’s Day just doesn’t make me all that happy. I hope this is something that will change. I hope that it will lose its bitterness. I hope that it will just be a good day in the coming years. Only time will tell.
Addalee is 8 months old now and full of personality. She’s such a booger! She laughs, spits, squeals, kicks, and screams in excitement. You can’t help but share in her joy. She’s swaddle free now…yes, it took us 8 months, so what?! ;) She has a serious independent streak and loves to do things on her own. I guess I’m just lucky she still needs me to do some things for her or she’d probably just get her own place!