I’m a stay at home mom. It’s a pretty sweet gig, I must admit. I can’t imagine having to have left Addalee as a little tiny thing with someone each day and go to work. So I count it a big blessing that I’ve been able to stay here. It’s a tough job sometimes, but the hard work is well worth it.
Since I am here with her all the time, Addalee really hasn’t spent much time away from me. I go to a support group once a month, for about 3 hours each time. Other than that, I’m pretty much just a cry away. A little while back, I noticed how excited she was when her Daddy came home from work. It was really pretty precious, really. That sheer joy.
Well, that preciousness is starting to rub off a bit for me. See, that girl really only wants her Daddy. If he’s around, she wants him to hold her, him to play with her, etc. I’m just kind of there. You know, the person who does EVERYTHING for her?! If I reach for her, she turns her back to me and holds on to him! I mean, she’ll talk to me and giggle with me, but would rather be in his arms. At first I just brushed it off, but it actually is hurting my feelings a little bit. Maybe that’s lame. But it is what it is. I’ve heard the “Daddy’s girl” thing, but I guess I just expected it not to be so evident!
I feel a little silly even putting this out there, but it’s what’s on my mind right now. I’m really hoping this is just a phase and she levels back out. If it’s not, it’s not. But I can hope, right?
Speaking of Addalee…she’s 9 months old today! MY GOODNESS! Where has the time gone?!?! Next time I turn around, she’s going to be a year old. I can’t believe it. Insanity!