Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Wonderful Promises

Rainbows...do you remember getting excited to see them when you were a child?  I do.  Somehow, their awesomeness was lost on me as a teen and an adult.  This isn't something that I'm proud of.  It's almost like it was something that I grew out of, for whatever reason...the amazingness of the world and the creatures living in it.  I lost sight of so much, because I got so busy living my life.  I wasn't even living the life I truly wanted to be living, the "end goal" kind of life...but I was working the plan, doing the best I could to do what I was supposed to do.  I'm not saying that I wasn't happy in my life.  I've been extraordinarily blessed, I want to always make that point.  I'm thankful to have been able to go to college, graduate, and get a good job.  I'm thankful for a wonderful husband, our second house, a couple of nice cars, and a comfortable life.  I'm thankful for my family, my friends, even my dog!  But I had missed something.  Some of the beauty that is in the world, and in life.  I was so busy living that I didn't see much.  I saw chores, bills, and deadlines...that's where my priorities were!  When we got pregnant with Caroline, that started to change.  Now, my priorities were preparing for her, mentally, physically, emotionally.  I was her mama and I needed to be ready for that role.  I did whatever I knew to do.  Then.  We.  Lost.  Her.  She slipped out of the world, waking to the glory of Heaven before she ever even opened her eyes outside my womb.  I realized then how much living I've been missing.  I realize that I missed some of her life because I didn't think that I needed to cherish those little things...at least not as much as I wish I had.  Hindsight being what it is, I would have done things differently...but, we don't get do-overs.  So, after she passed away, the world looked different to me.  And in these 9 months (and then some) that we've been living in this world without our little Caroline, I saw my first rainbows yesterday...and they were beautiful.  They brought tears to my eyes.  Now, I know that anyone around who looked at the sky would have seen that double rainbow, but I kind of felt like it was created by God, just for me.  Kind of a little message from Him straight to me...and I'm thankful for it.   I snapped a couple of pictures with our little digital camera (not the nice camera, but the small point and shoot...not that I can take good pictures anyway!), and thought I'd share a little of the beauty with you! :)


  1. beautiful post. I love rainbows too. Especially now. What a wonderful way to look at it all. Hold on to that.

  2. I love this post. I saw my first rainbows as well just a couple weeks ago. I too felt like they were just for me. All beautiful things remind me of my beautiful daughter. Thanks for sharing this!

  3. Just beautiful. Rainbows have such as special meaning in our community.