Sheesh! Time has really been getting away from me! I didn't realize it'd been so long since I'd updated. But anyway, here I am! I can see each of you breathing a little easier now! ;)
We've just been living life. And I have to say that it feels good to be able to say that. It's not that little Caroline isn't always in my heart, always on my mind, but the grief has allowed me to breathe a little as of late. I've fallen into the routine of a (fairly) normal mom, and it feels pretty amazing. For a long time, I couldn't imagine what that would feel like. I longed to have a baby to slather with sunscreen and splish splash in the lake with, to buckle into the carseat, to change stinky diapers when I just sat down to eat my breakfast, to sing silly songs, and rock in that rocking chair. The daily life is hard work, sometimes it's way harder than going to a real "job", but it's where I want to be...where I have wanted to be.
Addalee is 10.5 months old. It's almost like we're in fast forward! It's insane that she could be almost a year old already (and Caroline almost 2)! Where has the time gone?! She truly is a breath of fresh air, a bright smiling, silly dancing, little bit of hair having sweet girl. Sometimes I look at her and can barely believe she's ours to keep.
I'm going to try to get better at the blogging thing again. I have good excuses for slacking, I promise! :)
We've just been living life. And I have to say that it feels good to be able to say that. It's not that little Caroline isn't always in my heart, always on my mind, but the grief has allowed me to breathe a little as of late. I've fallen into the routine of a (fairly) normal mom, and it feels pretty amazing. For a long time, I couldn't imagine what that would feel like. I longed to have a baby to slather with sunscreen and splish splash in the lake with, to buckle into the carseat, to change stinky diapers when I just sat down to eat my breakfast, to sing silly songs, and rock in that rocking chair. The daily life is hard work, sometimes it's way harder than going to a real "job", but it's where I want to be...where I have wanted to be.
Addalee is 10.5 months old. It's almost like we're in fast forward! It's insane that she could be almost a year old already (and Caroline almost 2)! Where has the time gone?! She truly is a breath of fresh air, a bright smiling, silly dancing, little bit of hair having sweet girl. Sometimes I look at her and can barely believe she's ours to keep.
I'm going to try to get better at the blogging thing again. I have good excuses for slacking, I promise! :)
It's a good thing I have other ways of talking to you or I would really have been waiting for a new blog! :)
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear that A is feeling like yours to keep, I'm still waiting for that feeling with M. Love that you are experiencing all these wonderful things with her, just wish it was old hat from going through it with Caroline first.
Looking forward to reading more posts...I wonder why you have been so busy ;)
So glad to hear that you all are doing great! Our little ones are never gone from our hearts and minds, they just have to share our attentions with their little brothers and sisters! :)
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xoxox
Happy for you and your sweet Addie. I just wish both your babies could be with you.
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